dispute of will

Lingering inside for the time passes
Is all the blue the sky can be
Deep yet far fathoming careless
Sway leaping thru my sea

Beauty as soul departs unsound
Really whispers for bounce
To annoy balance I once
For the air forbids my eyes

No believe drown out but
The compassion of love
Has lost in vanity

Far...

So far...

Behind...

My will


(back to 14/10/2003)

senyum 01.00

00.15, masih beresin server di kantor, ditemenin Donzser...
komputer masih crash juga. capek. cabut aja...

00.30, taksi datang, pulang ke Cibubur...

01.00, ngantuk, buka pintu rumah pelan-pelan...
biar gak ganggu Abin & Bunda nya yang pasti sedang tidur...
pelan-pelan taruh sepatu...

"ayaaahh...." Abin teriak turun dari tempat tidur, sambil senyum lepas
dia jelas gak tidur, nunggu aku...

"Abin punya mainan baru, ayah!" langsung minta nyalain lampu...
sambil terus berceloteh, nunjukin 1 set mainan hewan-hewan ternak plus
pagarnya, disusun kayak peternakan (menurut dia) seperti di Barney,
habis dibeliin Bunda nya siang tadi.

ilang sudah capek & ngantuk...
nemenin dia yang sudah bela-belain nunggu aku...

"ayah, kok malem sih pulangnya?"

aku cuman bisa senyum...

hom pim pa

...
hom pim pa
alaium gambreng

pok imah
pake baju rombeng
...


pagi ini, liat Abin maen sama Bunda nya, lucu banget

blind!

Grab loose all the faith for infinity

Roaring high light in tranquility

So high...

...

..

.

I'm so blinded!


(back to ../../2004)

rain

For rain fallin' covered my nerve
To save the creation of joy I serve

Descent scare for foolin' my doubt
Of loosin' the sweetest rain in my life


(joyful rain, ../../2003)

a morning: when i was away

Each wondrous morning
Which sublimes into shining dews
Covered the new earth,
Redefines my sight of you
Wonders for eternal heart.

Good heavenly morning.


(back to ../../2002)

a nite: when i was away

Wish the nite stars embrace
All rude of the days,
Like a simple lullaby
Sings you peaceful prayer
To dream;

For the light dimmer
And keep you still
...

Longing for a long
Soothe kiss goodnite


(back to ../../2002)

Live to learn. Learn to live.

I believe learning will bring me into a better human.
By developing curiosity and knowledge, I respect my life in absorbing the fascinating of this world and make a better of it.

I always put my self in the spirit of pursuing knowledge, to give a total and deeper consideration of my life, my love, my works and my dreams, passionately.

Fool In The Rain

Well there's a light in your eye that keeps shining
Like a star that can't wait for the night
I hate to think I've been blinded baby
Why can't I see you tonight?

And the warmth of your smile starts a-burnin'
And the thrill of your touch gives me fright
And I'm shaking so much, really yearning
Why don't you show up, make it all right?
Yeah, it's all right.

And if you promised you'd love so completely
and you said you would always be true
You swore that you would never leave me, baby:
What ever happened to you?

And you thought it was only in movies
As you wish all your dreams would come true
It ain't the first time believe me, baby
I'm standin here feeling blue
Yeah I'm blue

Now I will stand in the rain on the corner
I'll watch the people go shuffling downtown
Another ten minutes no longer
And then I'm turning around

The clock on the wall's moving slower
My heart it sinks to the ground
And the storm that I thought would blow over
Clouds the light of the love that I found

Now my body is starting to quiver
And the palms of my hands getting wet
I've got no reason to doubt you baby,
It's all a terrible mess

I'll run in the rain till I'm breathless
When I'm breathless I'll run till I drop, hey
The thoughts of a fool's kind of careless
I'm just a fool waiting on the wrong block, oh yeah

Light of the love that I found...

(John Paul Jones/Jimmy Page/Robert Plant, album Led Zeppelin "In Through The Out Door", 1979)

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So my story began...

first of all...

"Sometimes when you give the world the best you got, you get kicked in the teeth. Give the world the best you got anyway." (Damn Yankees)